I couldn’t dance for my volunteer job very well before, but
I don’t wanna say that it is because of my illness, cancer.
It was the worst condition to dance after ovariectomy and lymphadenectomy
of the hip.
Misalignment of the bone in neck was found after that.
Doctor doesn’t recommend me to dance any more but I can’t stop it now.
This happened three years ago.
I was afraid because all of my life in the past started to vanish because of the cancer so I chose not to depend on my consciousness as though I am so good at revolutionize my consciousness, that was because I felt so troublesome to think about my illness any more.
The same thing happened on that day too.
After looking up the sky lying on the grass for few hours being in a daze,
I felt comfortable with something suddenly.
I met fairies on the grass on the ground
Fairies put on many spherical accessories.
Many things happened there but I can’t tell you that.
But I can only tell you about the dance of fairies.
The dance expresses beauty of the universe
They dance slowly like they sweep the universe and look for something in the air, which made me feel peace and beauty I’ve never seen before.
I wish to dance like fairly as long as I am alive on this planet.
What you can do at the age of 0. What you can do in the teens. What you can do in the twenties. What you can do in the thirties. What you can do in the forties. What you can do in the fifties. What you can do in the sixties. What you can do in the seventies. What you can do in the eighties. What you can do in the nineties. What you can do in the 100's. What you can do in the 110's What you can do in the 120's. What you can do in the 130's. What you can do in the 140's. What you can do in the 150's.
Do you know your age if calculated by the cosmos age?
When you know your age of the cosmos, You will notice your mission.
Why don't you free from your stereotyped image of age ?
I organized a concert in Singaraja in 1998. Singaraja is situated in eastern Bali, which is known as the island of Hinduism and is said to be “the last paradise”. People in Singaraja have faiths in Catholic and Islam that isn’t popular in Bali. And what I was surprised about mysterious Singaraja was the statue of sleeping Buddha, which means there are some Buddhists too. I had friends of Islam, Hindu and Catholic there. But I had no difficulties in being together with them besides food problems. One day, I told the friend of Catholic about my willingness to hold a concert for orphan homes. He didn’t take my words seriously and said that it was so difficult for Japanese to organize an event in Singaraja. But honestly, I couldn’t accept his words, so I visited all the orphan homes in Singaraja by myself and met their directors to tell my passion. Thankfully, the directors were agreed with my idea so I got lots to do for the concert after that. First, I had to get an appointment to meet face-to-face with the governor to get permission of the concert. This is incredible job for me Japanese. I thought the government didn’t take care of people like me who were volunteering only for ordinary citizens. But my wish came true. I could meet the governor. This is my first job with the government in Indonesia. On the day of the concert, three thousands of people gathered. Admission fee was 1000RP. It is about 50yen at the time. I donated all the money we got to orphan homes in Singaraja. I really appreciate my friends who came to help us all the way from Japan. Thank you again. Thank you very much. I am very happy if you all think this concert to be nice and unforgettable. I visited 50 or more orphan homes and hugged children. I gave them presents too. Pencils, notebooks, clothes, shoes and toys etc. I used grant to buy some foods like eggs, noodles, rice, flour as we visit orphan homes and sometimes donated it to build extra room of orphan homes. On the last day in Bali, my friends held a party for me.。 I can’t forget that my friend band played SMOOTH by Santana for me. All my friends were crying and I said farewell in Hindu. Later, I left Bali, the Hindu island and moved to Jakarta, the capital of Indonesia. The rest of my life in Indonesia was …, Well, I will write the story some day.
Sometimes it happens that there's nothing left after you believe something right and devote yourself to it. Even if you want to think them back again, you can't find any piece of them left after broke in a moment .
She committed suicide. People in distress has no words. She used to say,
Finding yourself ? That thing is a fake. How can you be so naive? Fortunetelling is just a way of making money.
You can find yourself as you die.
How can you help people find themselves even though you can't find yourself? Isn't it ridiculous? Great people who create this society know themselves.
You see? You can't see yourself because you can't see the others. Because they are selfish. She was my friend, a tarot reader.
She committed suicide because she chose to do so as a part of her life not because she wanted to escape from something. Instead of words, suicide was an assertion for her .
She will change our existing fortunetelling from heaven.